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its gotten hard to focus throuugh all these over doses
its like i got a life in my hands
and i almost lost grip of it now theres orchids in my spit
now i have nightmares of spitting up flowers
i guess girls like me aren't allowed to dream
I need to feel something even if its for a second
so i force my self to come to the sound of my own laughter
and after it feels like a fetish
im a dirty nasty kinky creep for needing stability
please for give me for needing sleep
stitched into my skin like a days n daze patch
this tattoo is forever even if the friend that didnt isnt
and im overwhelmed easlily look me in the eyes
and tell me that you berleive in me
before one of us disappears
im used to you just taking off
but theres usually at least one good bye
doubt
whyd you have to go so soon.
Jessie williiams
From flesh and bone to death and stone, faces gone and still the earth spins
The rest of us will carry on but feel the cracks below the surface
Dragging on to what avail? Our bodies rotting with confusion
Lonely, tired, fried and frail. We live our lives in idle movements
And giving into oblivion it seems all lost somewhere
Between the awkwardness and the obvious of the trauma we all share
And if ending it is preventative I can only blame the cause
So few of us are left to beat the odds
Sidhe Wyly
I collect pictures and scraps of my siblings and my sisters who have passed
by the rope, or the fentanyl in the batch
everytime my phone rings, I'm expectin bad news
I know the choking greeting, the silence that ensues
now I just cut through, tell me who, tell me who it is now
place your bets
whose ashes are we spreadin next?
I stick n poke her dust into my leg so she can walk with me.
Didn't get to throw enough rocks or paint enough corporate property.
Not the blaze of glory that you thought that it oughta be,
I track you round the city by the breadcrumbs that you dropped for me.
walk around cussin at em underneath my breath
saying you should've known better, shoulda squared up and talked to me
lover in the summer moon
dancer in my dreams
happens so quickly that I don't have time to grieve.
I grow flowers for my lost loves
Flowers for my comrades
Promise every chance I have
I'll fight like it'll bring em back
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Gratitude
04:13
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I am only punk so ive got the wiggle room to make mistakes
its all on display all of my cognative dissonance
and i am only punk so being bad at what i love
is an aesthetic shoice not a mistake ive made
by chain smoking my voice away
check my collection of hand made disks and youll find the manifest of a thousand train kids
ill never be one of the greatest but ill be in the same dusty crate as them.
its okay to be over rated
i first herd that song as a whisper in the yard
never herd the banjo played so delibrately kind
and i wonder where you are and i wonder if you wonder where i am
drunk punk drunk punk your no hero any more
im afraid to leave the house cause this bike is a pipe bomb
we went together like sharpies on CD-Rs
sure did leave your permenent mark
i think kimya dawsons more punk than dystopia
but its not a compitition i just like to have such a thought
I am only punk so i got the wiggle room to make mistakes
its all on display
all of my cognitive dissonance
and ive been town from the sky i know what its like
to hit the ground at full force breaking all of your bones
i know whats its like satan to feel your pain
look at me know im afraid of loud sounds
looking at me am i still punk
look at me know im afraid to raise my voice
well thats a good choice
needs go unnoticed if left unspoke so
i have spoke oipenly and hoepfully it seatles this discomfort
i wonder if ozzy ozborn was into vore
ive learned to hug myself more and more
I never got to thank you for talking to my parents when you weren't talking to me. you stood next to my gender when no one else. you talked to people when they didn't know what was going on. i didn't know what was going on either but you had my back even in a time when i didn't have yours
i think youre a good person.
i think i am now too
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Growth
04:34
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Lil Lavedy Albuquerque, New Mexico
From the depths of diy warehouses and crowed house shows Lil Lavedy emerges from the underground to give you in your face punk, emotional ballads, and spicy hip hop. Raised in Las Vegas now dwelling Albuquerque.
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